enigmatic feelings.. { Wednesday, February 29, 2012 @ 12:06 AM }

hello world! well im backkk and yes these few days have really been.. chill?XD yep and guess it's really wonderful when now i appreciate the friends arnd me i see.. no matter who they are or whether u see them everyday.. how wonderful it is to have friends.. lol guess when there's losses there's bound to be gain.. yep consider myself lucky.. i could still talk to ppl and guess time will tell. oh gosh yeah monday was my upper study, vince's ORD day! wow big day for him!XD guess he'll definitely enjoy himself out there. guess im also getting busier by the days as i got another case? which shld require me to go to the court martial again.. lols. alright guess i wont be so fascinated by the place after all.. lol i may even gt so sick of that place..XD kaez nvm. then yep life's chilling with nth much on for now but whtever.. it always has to move on and i guess i'll just have to make the best out of it. getting late and i've a live run tmr.. sians kaez so thats all for now. oh ya! i've been so bored or wanna gt distracted recently so i decided to catch gossip girls..-.- gosh i cant gt any lamer than i am now LOL. but i knw u guys'll still love me.. XOXO signing off~

yes happy birthday to me { Sunday, February 26, 2012 @ 10:30 PM }

haish guess this bdae is kinda boring since i was doing duty and wasting time arnd.. so duty till this morning.. came out and home-ed jsut to go out again with my mum for buffet lunch at woodlands sakura.. was pretty cool since i havnt eat buffet for a really long long time.. or did i?D; i forgt but nvm then ate and went on to waterfront... haish since my mum insist so bobian must follow.. somemore it's a hot afternoon after lunch walk kind.. so was pretty warm and uncomfortable la.. after the walk ended up at causeway pt doing random shopping and yes managed to meet siva there!XD so qiao sia..XD yep had some really nice chat and yep guess he's enjoying bmt!XD hais then left for home and slpt till now lol.. damn i missed 'up'.. it's such a nice movie!D; nvm ba guess thats all for the lousy bdae celebration today.. so much for 20 years old.. guess i just gting older and more messed up.. booking in tmr.. no idea wht'll happen since tmr my upper study ORD lo.. no more isac card wonder wht can i do sia.. sians alright thats all ciaos ppl!

the end. { Friday, February 24, 2012 @ 11:41 PM }

guess everything has to come to an end.. it's seemed so unfair but wht can i say.. u are just the wrong person at the wrong time i guess.. haish.. started on yr birthday.. ended on mine.. how apt is this....

i feel so tiredddd { Thursday, February 23, 2012 @ 11:15 PM }

oh hi ppl! today's pretty tiring but really free as well since i'm having an off tmr!;D yay bday off ftw! oh well kinda getting used to my ns life here in gsab safac already.. gosh i love this close-knitted family. today morning went to court martial for the first time of my life! omgg it's really cool seh! with real judge and real accused and MPs arnd.. lol once in a lifetime experience! well i think i'll definitely gt more chance to visit thr and most probably be4 ord i'll gt so sian of that place le..XD but nvm abt that since im stil like the novelty of this court martial. yep so listened to 7 cases presented today in the mornning.. some are fortunate while some are really deserving the punishments.. gosh ok then then lunched at yewtee point subway.. yeah so long since i last had subway.. and then afternoon went back office to eh.. standby for work? lol alright nvm abt that.. guess once i gt my isac card my arrows will start flying here..D; ok.. tmr's off.. gonna try baking some gd food for myself as it's my bday soon! ohman im aging.. 20 years old already..D; haish time flies so fast.. hao ba shallnt talk so much le today seems much better and less moody. guess i can finally slp at night le? lols kaez so nights ppl

安静 { 12:17 AM }

我会选择放弃你，是因为我太爱你..

why.. { Tuesday, February 21, 2012 @ 11:28 PM }

why do i still care so much when im the one who's supposed to be hurt.. why do i still think so much when all i want is just to slp. why am i still so negative when i knw that im in a bad mood.. especially when u dont seems to bother and yet i care so much.. why am i thinking somuch.. why.. doushite... kimi wa suki ni natte shimattandarou....

forgetful me.... { 10:40 PM }

lol life's gting kinda chillax now since i've done most of my part at work.. so it's mroe chillax now..XD just finished the whole book of 'Norwegian Woods' today.. gosh wht a porno book.. lols, but apart from all the sex and porn and stuff the storyline and lovestory was really great.. how wonderful and exciting the book can gt and made me finish like half a book today!XD or maybe it's just me being too bored?-.- lol well after all i did my job..;x oh well nvm.. nth to talk abt today.. just realising that im getting more and more forgetful recently.. zzz.. cant concentrate i guess.. sians think need to slp more sia.. or at least to think less?... haish after all cant concentrate give halfass work might as well dont do work.. lols.. alright nvm then.. wonder wht book im can read tmr sia.. finished my book this week guess i'll borrow more books from dennis's lib soon..XD oh well.. so much for that ba.. tmr shall embark on new book to read! such as.. the game!XD yes the legendary 'the game' guess i shall try it since it's like.. waiting for me in the office?;x kaez so thats all for now ba.. life's unfair and tough.. but wht can i do but to live on?...

gosh i really cant slp..-.- { Monday, February 20, 2012 @ 12:33 AM }

yes tot so i stayed up to update the links just now.. lols like so long nv update the links le all my friends gave up on blogging! lol must be the new 'in' thing called 'facebook'.. lols guess yeah time pass things change.. im the only few who likes to stick to old things i guess? gosh im loving taeyeon's hush hush man! nv gt tired of seeing or hearing her sing that song.. awww.. kaez hope that will put me to slp.. somehow.. lol....

wonder when will i get a good night slp { Sunday, February 19, 2012 @ 11:51 PM }

oh well yes hi people.. today's another great day when i participated in the urbanathlon which was quite fun and interesting.. since i really enjoyed running in CBD district since i really love the morniing fresh air and the wonderful scenery.. makes really gd running route! gosh guess thanks for army half marathlon im beginning to enjoy all these runs.. but it really cost a bomb to run a run like this!x.x gosh nvm glad i enjoyed myself.. then. 14km + 9 obstacles.. lol quite fun sia.. sounds like an extended version of SOC or SEOC i would say?XD minus off the helmet rifle and ILBV!XDD yeah.. and there waas free fooddd and beer!? dafuq why the heck is there beer when it's a running event!?o.O oh welll but the beer was smooth and yeah.. pretty enjoyable. after run went on to guan yin miao to pray since me n my mum wanna gt amulets for blessing.. lol yep so went along.. was quite dead when i reached home.. kinda like slpt the whole afternoon.. lol, then evening went on to jp for dinner plus some mini groceries shopping and home-ed afterwards.. guess that sums up today.. after watching transformers and singapore talks 3.. LOL im gting so bored that im beginning to follow tv programmes..XD kaez guess that will at least keep my mind occupied or smth.. really so sad that i cant gt good night slp since ytd? slp only like 1am when im on bed at 11.. lol guess today's suppose to be the same? but at least im nt on bed now so nt wasting time.... dunno wht to think oso.. hais.. nights

new skin.. { Saturday, February 18, 2012 @ 10:27 PM }

gosh i gt so flared up i began searching and upgrading a new skin for my blog.. guess that sure calm me down for quite abit.. haish make me rmb the days i did my blog n change my skin so often.. those days.. gosh im growing so old and i can finally feel it.. growing up is nt fun at all.. lols kaez so yeah guess make do with this skin ba.. links and stuff will be editted and updated.. soon.. for now gotta rest.. tmr im gonna participate in some run in the morning gonna rest now.. nights and peace.

i dont knw wht to say. { 9:20 PM }

heyy.. has been awhile.. guess im just too busy to blog nowadays.. thurs and fri was some soc thingy.. or they called it voc or ctc or smth.. whtever.. waste my time since i've done soc be4 and thats a simpler version? now i feel the pain of arrows..-.- esp with the carrying of ilbv all around on thurs from camp back home and fri to the safety day events in kranji camp 3.. zzz.. gosh nvm im kinda in a bad mood right now.. and the best part is i dunno wht to say..

WHY! I DUNNO THE ANSWER MYSELF.. zzz.. why did i give u all my trust and u can just bloody betray it.. how could u.. i knw we are in 2 very different environments now.. uni and ns is nv alike.. i understand if u're bored with my ns stuff but hey.. i didnt mean to bore u.. i ididnt even bother telling u much of my ns life since i knw i'll bound to bore u.. besides that i always try to cheer u up when u're down.. to go out whenever i can.. meeting u whenever im free.. do u understand how tiring it is to always try to meet u every single time fitting yr free time afraid to crash with yr exams.. trying to cheer u up whenever ure whining abt exams, stress or even the smallest things on earth.. gosh. im no superman.. i tried my best and apparently it's nt enough.. i just wanted u to be happy and yet this is how u treat me.. seriously im sick and tired of it already.. u told me u just wanted more friends and yes i let u.. u told me u wanted some privacy and yes i gave u.. but this is wayy too much. this is really hurtful.. really too much.. sometimes i even qns myself and yet i deny myself of such doubts.. i believed in u.. why.. why the heck.. i feel terrible now.. like as if 3 years plus was almost for nth and i really dunno wht to think anymore.. freaking hell why the heck am i typing all these when u wont even bother reading this blog.. my blog... haish.. lost and hurt now and i myself dunno wht the heck m i thinking.. i wish things could go smoother but yes im just living in self denial.. the heck am i trying so hard in everything.. can u stop making me qnsing myself abt us? this really sucks and i really hate it.. zz.. guess im really nt in a mood to blog properly.. gosh nvm. the more i type the more flared up i gt.. shall stop here.. enough.. is enough.

happy belated valentine's day! { Wednesday, February 15, 2012 @ 12:10 AM }

hey people! yeah super long nv blog le.. freaking busy recently.. gosh totally.. last fri was the worst.. OT TILL 10PM!D; ohwell why am i complaining when i still get to go home at least.. LOL. alright maybe sometimes stayin might just be a little bit better.. save all the troubles of travelling.. especially when u dont live very near to yr camp..D; oh well but yeah finally like im tasked to do some stuff?o.O yep life in the unit is finally beginning..XD pretty exciting and busy buzzy actually since whole day typing emails and facing my com.. gosh my myopia might just gt worse!XD my job aside.. today's vday!XD happy vday to all!!XD yep so afternoon gt a med appt and went down to SGH arnd 4pm? gosh and gt my med review on my cyst which is cfm to be a cyst?o.O yes so that means it's finally cfm to be a cyst when the docs have been using it to call that air/liquid sac in my body since forever.. gosh lol then was referred for a later chk up to decide whether shld ops or nt... kaez fine with that.. at least wont hav to ops so fast like right after i become a 2lt? lol or i'll be REALLY doing a overpaid clerk's job.. LOL! alrightie after that was dinner and unfortunately.. vday happens to be the common tests week so yeah.. things werent so smooth after all.. and plus im so busy recently gosh.. quite some cockups siol!D; but luckily dinner was great and the ambience was excellent!XD thank me for the choice restaurant i've found..XD alright enough craps.. vday's kinda really busy too.. days coming are gonna gt worse with the crappy soc thingy which im supposed to do.. lols alright so guess thats all for now ba. hope to blog soon and sayonara!;D

back to work! { Monday, February 06, 2012 @ 12:56 AM }

hellO! well today's kinda plain? but at least nt so bad ba.. managed to recover from my rashes and itch today in the morning.. so helped out to bake a cake then be4 slacking in the afternoon taking nap n watching tv? LOL. ohwell life's too boring i guess.. then evening finally went out for dinner w shixiao lo.. kaez! recently caught on to kingdom rush! a cute animated tower defense game.. LOL gosh im really too bored.. wanna read some book but books are often boring when u read too much of them so i guess i have to turn to alternatives..;x kaez since tmr has to work still and wake up at 0530am.. it's time for me to turn in.. good night world!

a wasted night well spent!XD { Sunday, February 05, 2012 @ 12:21 AM }

yep got wasted last ngiht.. was a great night! started off with class dinner at some korean bbq at novena.. was great! gosh so long nv meet up with everyone and of cos.. the guest of honour.. MR TAN KAY SONG!XD yeah guess our econs teacher is still the same.. then had quite some gd bbq meat.. kimchi.. drinks.. yeah. was pretty cool and fun. after that still gotta celebrate wayne n shuhui's bday..XD yeah the green tea cake was pretty gd too.. then then.. end of dinner? went off to find the gsab guys to celebrate matthew's bday.. was awesome at the ktv man! with all the alcohol and omgg.. yes the girls..;x LOL but ok la it was very decent!;x oh well guess it was really fun and most of the guys actually gt wasted..XD cab-ed home with james later on and yeah today this morning went off for MRI.. was pretty comfortable actually since i gt to slp n stuff lol. even though the machine was damn noisy.. then went on to see some song dynasty paintings w my mum at expo.. gosh totally nt worth it since i was so tired and wasted.. LOL. somemore thanks to the alcohol i've rashes and itch all over. sians alright nvm then guess thats all for now.. till next time!;D